As you may have noticed if you have followed my social media presence, I have called myself enlightened for the last year. This is a mistake, IF I would consider that I was the same person then as I am now. At the moment I am not enlightened at all. To include my past self and who I am today, I would be to say that I have striven for enlightenment and self-actualization during the past years, and during that process, I have had quite a few (from my perspective) mind-boggling experiences and insights into the nature of reality, which have turned my life upside down and inside out, in ways which I could never have imagined before.
What is this thing about enlightenment? The perfectly enlightened being would be totally unselfish, 100% aware, compassionate and unconditionally loving. At the moment I am far from that, I still have a great deal of flaws. This blog post is my attempt to turn some of these flaws and especially their effect on my life for the last weeks into something positive. I want to show you what can happen when you attempt to be a modern fledgling apprentice Jesus/Buddha/saint-whatever, but you fail. I will demonstrate this with an example from my life. These events made me laugh, and I hope you who are reading this can laugh with me. This post is only slightly related to Jesus, actually most specifically to some of his miracles, where he made food appear seemingly inexhaustibly.
This particular story started with my realization that by manipulating thoughts one can manifest things very quickly (almost instantly), and also get extremely good at it. This actually what every human being does, although many do it at such an unconscious level that they forget that it is actually their thoughts and beliefs about reality that make the things appear exactly where and how they appear.
The ideal is that one uses this knowledge for personal growth. Part of creating these ideal circumstances is questioning what one’s true nature is. What is consciousness? How does reality actually work? What makes you think you are who you are? Especially those things that limit you from true lasting happiness and fulfillment should be questioned to their core. In the end, you may discover that nothing you took for granted about reality actually has any solid ground. Thus, you can in principle become a miracle-worker like Jesus, turning water into wine, or anything else you would like, but previously thought would never could happen, a.k.a. your truest most inner desires. Perhaps the next president. A rock star. An intergalactic ambassador. An immortal god/goddess. Imagination and dreams team up properly with actual experience. The higher level of consciousness you reach, the more readily you can become and live it.
So what have I used this for? One thing I have gradually changed in my reality is making sure I don’t need to buy anything I need any longer at all. I basically make my shopping list with the universe in general as the provider, and only use things which have been discarded by others. This is marvelous from my point of view, since it enables me to live with zero, or even reversed negative impact on the environment. It aligns with my well with my values.
But what happens when your lower self, the more egotistic side of you which you have been working to overcome makes a comeback? The one that does not want to do any effort of self-improvement and keep everything for and to itself?
Well, in my case, this turned me into a funny sort of beta-Jesus, (as in a buggy version of a software not ready for public release). Striving to be a savior of the world, but with all sorts of personal problems still lingering on from the past. Some examples are low self-esteem, indecisiveness and tendencies to isolate myself. Most of these flaws are not glaring obvious, and they subtly come and go. So instead of, like Jesus, providing bread for the poor and hungry, beta-Jesus manifests bizarre amounts of bread (while trying to find healthier food, but mostly failing (except for fruits, fruits are easy, they grow on trees!)). I already knew from previous experiments that eating is actually not necessary. But old habits and cravings still popped back up, so as beta-Jesus I manifested bread as a sort of common-denominator-food, and in all sorts of places (just laying around wherever I look). I carried the bunch in the photo home, laughed about it and then didn’t really know what good to make of it except write this blog post.
Aside for entertainment, I hope this can help you in your quest for self-improvement, by showing what not to do and waste your time on.
I hope you have good regular healthy habits established such as meditation and yoga, and avoid eating fast easy carbohydrates like beta-Jesus thinks he needs! If you buy bread (as opposed to just find it appear sitting next to you, looking inconspicuous), at least buy whole-grain. Mono-cultures in general are not ecologically friendly at all compared to locally produced legumes!
You can also have a look into the eBook I have available for download on my food blog (it is a fun and friendly one) and follow my instagram for inspiration =)