Tuesday morning poetry

I was inspired to write the following poems after reading the Chinese 9th century poet Hanshan, which I can very much recommend! If you like my humble efforts, Hanshan will give you a real treat!

poem #1

Where the rubber meets the road

and there is an old toad

Where I have my abode there

comes the code from the node

poem #2

I met her yesterday by the river

She carried that furry friend

I almost went but then stayed and

exchanged some words and smiles

What before seemed so important

became nothing in that moment

poem #3

I start to feel more empty,

that must be true success

Let me stay like this forever,

bent over a piece of paper

poem #4

To stay out of the clear path,

yet not trip over the vines

Here I am truly speechless

Why is this such a

poem #5

Bubbling pond hide beneath

dark waters immense pressure

the happiest treasure known

You can ignite it, but don’t

It would go off in a beautiful blast

but it wouldn’t last

Stay hidden in the glade

poem #6

7.13 and up since four

cold feet and bent back

bread and lentils in belly

my farts are really smelly

but my joy is out of bounds

poem #7

A heart of gold has no color

yet its brilliance is beyond blinding

What I want to tell you

is that I love you

Instead I just pass by briefly

It is better this way

behind a courteous curtain

you keep your charm

you come to no harm

poem #8

Stirring my cup of rooibos tea

the spoon plays one-two-three

notes from the Imperial March

I haven’t paid rent since April

thinking of it my heart springs

enchanted this magical morning

poem #9

Frosty morning clouds like pink baguettes

Windows steamy with one person’s breath

The roar of an aluminum albatross

Ocean waves of commuting cars

A bird unheard of, the dog lark

with it first bark, a snark remark

a stark awakening in the park.

poem #10

The less I know myself

the more I love myself

Those who say ‘know thyself’

really mean the opposite

Walk the path which is not marked

it is infinitely broad

Be the place which is nowhere

and you are everywhere at once

Control something to the utmost degree

divide the moment infinitesimally

Thus inverting reality

you can set yourself free

poem #11

Am I exhausted?

Then let me be

like a barren tree

on desert sand

The last drop of water

of a cement cylinder

I swear, yet

my mouth is sealed

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I am the Earth

I am the Earth

I people myself

I am the most beautiful spaceship you might ever see

I spin and dance around a star

to get evenly shone

I tilt in my spinning dance

to give everyone the chance

to see the colours of seasons

to have plenty of reasons

to count years and to sing

at the arrival of spring

you walk my crust

you are child of my dust

butt I say that you must

not stay, nay, I trust

you to set out a course

to explore life in force

the outside of me

stars everywhere you can see

take care of me

like I care for you

and make love be

all you can see

in this galaxy

A story to B-read about a Buddhing Jesus

As you may have noticed if you have followed my social media presence, I have called myself enlightened for the last year. This is a mistake, a better formulation would be to say that I have striven for enlightenment and self-actualization during the past years, and during that process, I have had quite a few (from my perspective) mind-boggling experiences and insights into the nature of reality, which have turned my life upside down and inside out, in ways which I could never have imagined before. But let’s save most of those stories for another time.
What is this thing about enlightenment? The perfectly enlightened being would be totally unselfish, 100% aware, compassionate and unconditionally loving. At the moment I am far from that, I still have a great deal of flaws. This blog post is my attempt to turn some of these flaws and especially their effect on my life for the last weeks into something positive. I want to show you what can happen when you attempt to be a modern fledgling apprentice Jesus/Buddha/saint-whatever, but you fail. I will demonstrate this with an example from my life. These events made me laugh, and I hope you who are reading this can laugh with me. This post is only slightly related to Jesus, actually most specifically to some of his miracles, where he made food appear seemingly inexhaustibly.

This particular story started with my realization that by manipulating thoughts one can manifest things very quickly (almost instantly), and also get extremely good at it. This actually what every human being does, although many do it at such an unconscious level that they forget that it is actually their thoughts and beliefs about reality that make the things appear exactly where and how they appear.
The ideal is that one uses this knowledge for personal growth. Part of creating these ideal circumstances is questioning what one’s true nature is. What is consciousness? How does reality actually work? What makes you think you are who you are? Especially those things that limit you from true lasting happiness and fulfillment should be questioned to their core. In the end, you may discover that nothing you took for granted about reality actually has any solid ground. Thus, you can in principle become a miracle-worker like Jesus, turning water into wine, or anything else you would like, but previously thought would never could happen, a.k.a. your truest most inner desires. Perhaps the next president. A rock star. An intergalactic ambassador. An immortal god/goddess. Imagination and dreams team up properly with actual experience. The higher level of consciousness you reach, the more readily you can become and live it.

So what have I used this for? One thing I have gradually changed in my reality is making sure I don’t need to buy anything I need any longer at all. I basically make my shopping list with the universe in general as the provider, and only use things which have been discarded by others. This is marvelous from my point of view, since it enables me to live with zero, or even reversed negative impact on the environment. It aligns with my well with my values.

But what happens when your lower self, the more egotistic side of you which you have been working to overcome makes a comeback? The one that does not want to do any effort of self-improvement and keep everything for and to itself?

Well, in my case, this turned me into a funny sort of beta-Jesus, (as in a buggy version of a software not ready for public release). Striving to be a savior of the world, but with all sorts of personal problems still lingering on from the past. Some examples are low self-esteem, indecisiveness and tendencies to isolate myself. Most of these flaws are not glaring obvious, and they subtly come and go. So instead of, like Jesus, providing bread for the poor and hungry (and I guess Jesus did fish too, but as a new updated vegan version, I refuse to do that), beta-Jesus manifests bizarre amounts of bread (while trying to find healthier food, but mostly failing (except for fruits, fruits are easy, they grow on trees!)). I already knew from previous experiments that eating is actually not necessary. But old habits and cravings still popped back up, so as beta-Jesus I manifested bread as a sort of common-denominator-food, and in all sorts of places (just laying around wherever I look). I carried the bunch in the photo home, laughed about it and then didn’t really know what good to make of it except write this blog post.

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Aside for entertainment, I hope this can help you in your quest for self-improvement, by showing what not to do and waste your time on.
I hope you have good regular healthy habits established such as meditation and yoga, and avoid eating fast easy carbohydrates like beta-Jesus thinks he needs! If you buy bread (as opposed to just find it appear sitting next to you, looking inconspicuous), at least buy whole-grain. Mono-cultures in general are not ecologically friendly at all compared to locally produced legumes!
You can also have a look into the eBook on my blog (it is a fun and friendly one) and follow my instagram for inspiration =)

Insights – Is it reasonable to be reasonable?

Here are some of my insights from the other day, they are pretty profound:

  • There is no actual state of being
  • There is no separation between consciousness/thoughts/concepts/perceived reality
  • There is no fear separate from any other emotions/energies
  • You never know yourself
  • Unconditionality IS truth, as in, both are pointers towards ‘it’, which cannot be told in words, but only experienced. The knowing of self which cannot be fully reached, but reached for.
  • Raised consciousness of direct experience/present moment is a link/pointer to wisdom and insights, which gets translated into thoughts and actions, but not necessarily happiness.

Also, four insights connecting consciousness with quantum physics:

  1. The sense of perceiving self/ego IS quantum wave collapses, the most persistent ones.
  2. Hightened consciousness reverses this process.
  3. This process is completely neutral in both ways.
  4. Conditional trust and love is symmetry breaking, leading to lower consciousness. Basically ego attaches itself to certain ideas, things, people, etc. Unconditional love and trust is symmetry forming, leading to higher consciousness.

Some other insights while frying pancakes. I don’t feel these are as solid.

  • Reality+thoughts could be seen as just a purpose invention machine, going wherever thought takes it.
  • The idea of having to serve/help others or self is just another accumulated belief, it is self-defeating to worry about or cling to.
  • The more you try to control or conquer something, for example, a habit, or the egotistic side of you, the more it encroaches upon you, by law of attraction.

 

Some late evening questions and more

I sat down and contemplated the following questions this evening:

  • The up, down and strange quarks in the Standard Model in quantum physics can form 10 different Baryons with three quarks: uuu, uud, uus, udd, uds, ddd, dds, dss and sss (order invariance applies). Now does these and other quantum particles have equivalences in fundamental concepts of the human psychology? I find this a fascinating question. And why stop at Baryons.
  • What is beauty from a photon’s perspective?
  • Is fear one end of a spectrum of repelling forces, as in how negatively charged particles and objects repel each other, and the same happens between positively charged particles? Can fear then be seen as something completely neutral and natural, equal to, for example courage?
  • What is chance?  (as in for example luck)
  • What is sleep?
  • Can you juggle infinity? How?

I have no answers for you, and perhaps that is for the best! I will publish my insights (which curiously enough, are not all so related to the questions!) at a later date. Until then, I would love to hear what you think!

On a less ‘serious’ note, here are some ‘jokes’ (if they are depends totally on your perspective).


Björn asks the Universe (the Guru)
Björn: Do you know how many people live on Earth?
Universe: I don’t, I haven’t counted. I only see one present.


Björn: Have you seen my passion?
Universe: Ask Christ, I think you left it with him


Björn: Christ, can I have my passion back?
Christ: Yes, let’s cross you off my list


Björn: Christ, why am I older than you? I am 37!
Christ: You are not, I am 2017.
Universe: What are you talking about, you are all older than me!

TV and ADSL is BAD for EVERYONE!

The mediums such as ADSL and traditional television seems to be tailored to a passive consumer state, which is not healthy for the human being. We all carry deep within us the desire to improve ourselves and help others improve in order to live together as happy as possible. To do that we need to be able to openly and freely create, interact and share with each other. An internet connection where uploading information is as easy as downloading harmonizes best with that desire. Symmetric internet is already valued a lot by independent entrepreneurs and creators. This is the future of informatics and vital to the progress of humanity as a whole. Genuine options for a fast symmetric internet connection should be available to everyone, everywhere and the asymmetric options gradually phased out

Surfing the waves of self-made realities

I would like to share with you some of my latest experiences.

I have for quite a while lived with the insight that a being with a determined enough mind can actually change ALL rules of its experienced existence. Some weeks ago I went along with applying it in a practical experiment on myself. I decided to set the rule that my functional capacities would stay constant with neither sleep nor food. It worked well, with applying regular meditation ‘resets’. I felt neither tiredness nor hunger. But in the end, it felt a bit too alienating, so I didn’t pursue these possibilities further. I feel both our inner work and the work we can do for others in our surroundings take precedence over pursuing too extreme game changes. An appropriate comparison from fiction might be how in the Lord of the Rings, both Galadriel and Gandalf refuses to take on the ring, afraid of what they would become with almost limitless power. Too extreme changes also make for a lot of experiential ‘bouncing’, that is, different places and circumstances become extremely contrasting. Although, it has also been a time of some amazing and interesting new discoveries.

Just going between the home I live in now, and the home I lived in until the beginning of March has been a bit like stepping through portals between different worlds. It has taken quite a bit of time for me to calibrate or balance my state of being in this process. Looking back, I see that this is of course how life has always been, only I was not aware of my part in it. The unconscious mind was left to set the rules, and I had not yet the knowledge, insights and experiences to be able to observe, understand and change it consciously.

Another separate episodic and very positive experience I had recently was a completely new sense of effortless flow. The boundary between my thoughts and the rest of the world had in a sense dissolved and I was united with a more universal intelligence. All hesitation and doubt was completely absent from the tasks I performed and also absent when switching between them. Any item, idea and even person showed up exactly when needed. Everything was completely unplanned in the typical sense of using a calendar or clock, but it still followed a great marvelous rhythm. It was as if I was just going for a nice long walk without any purpose, except I actually was working on many different things. This lasted perhaps two days. I don’t remember now what exactly got me out of it, but I am sure it was me coming back into doubting myself in some way.

Now, from my experience of (at least temporarily) being an ‘enlightened’ person, without a very firm path to follow, is that a kind of reality-wave can form. Knowing that reality shapes and reflects every belief you hold, you get to freely choose what reality you want to experience. But how do you choose it? Is there any right or wrong? Here is a simple binary example to illustrate:

  • Believing in the lack of enlightenment in others. Now if you believe yourself to be enlightened, you become responsible for helping everything you perceive as not you to know the same truth. You will see and encounter everything you believe to be ‘wrong’ in the world.
  • Believing in everything else being already enlightened, perfect in itself. Accepting everything as it is. You will see your own loving reflection and the experience becomes quite paradisiacal, but it seems to not change or challenge you much. If you and everything else is Buddha, could it be that Buddha becomes bored?

I will continue my efforts to try to better ‘surf’ this reality-wave. Being part of an infinite reality, one thing is certain: there are infinite ways to create, learn and improve upon oneself within the experience.

Reflections from a “radical” mind on the perception of “normal”

From my current observational point after a few years of vegetarianism, some months of veganism, increased spiritual and self-awareness leading to several enlightenment experiences, my take on the majority of the western civilization is that it is and has been for a long time suffering from a perpetual mass-psychosis, one in which I myself participated in for most of the years of my life. This mass-psychosis could be categorized in terms of a secondary type of self-delusion of what it is possible to be and become as a human being. It is a mass-induced and self-perpetuated paranoia and fear of the unknown, be it of religion, culture, spirituality, drugs, sexuality or other phenomena or belief which does not fit well with the current paradigm. This includes an over-identification of the importance of maintaining the own personality/ego-structure together with its cultural circumstances, and a victimizing/dis-empowering mindset when looking at one’s own capacity to change it. An over-reliance on seeking external solutions to self-created problems, instead of looking inwards and finding true purpose.
I want to share this perhaps seemingly negative observation as a kind gift in the hopes that it can greatly benefit and open the eyes for anyone who would like to accept it. I believe it is up to each and everyone to find out their own truth and discover what extraordinary beings they truly are and deeply desire to become. We are all on the path together. Take back your power, become a creator, heal yourself and heal the world! And don’t forget to have fun too!

A simple way to get started is to set up a meditation practice if you do not already have one. Find one which appeals to you. For example, set off twenty minutes at a time when you can be undisturbed, at a place you enjoy being in. Do it every day. It is free, everyone can do it. It gives tremendous results, in a very short time.

Is the Bible vegan? – A somewhat “fishy” subject…

If you have read my previous blog post on consciousness (You are infinite infinities) you already know what I think about beliefs and their malleable form, being interconnected energy patterns that shape all of reality, ultimately being just as exchangeable as your underwear, t-shirt or facial expression.

Starting from there, let us examine some relationships between enlightenment, a common world religion (Christianity in this case) and veganism. I want to warn you in advance that I might seem to stray a bit off-topic. This is just how my mind wanders. I do at least mention fish again in the last sentence.

The “typical” believer – when religion, spirituality and self-development becomes static

An friend recently reflected on the views which her mother held on fish. Her mother tried to follow the Bible to the letter in regards to what choices to make in diet. She proposed that Jesus put fish on the earth for us to eat, and that this was so proven by the writings in the Bible.

Let us assume for a moment that it is true that Jesus put the fish for us to eat. Now this is perfectly fine (remember that any individual truth is perfectly true in the subjective reality for as long as it is fully held by that individual being. If this is hard to understand, I advice to go back and read this post). So this belief is just as valid as any other. By accepting it, the typical human will live out life believing fish is for eating and thus directly or indirectly killing, preparing and eating fish, until dying of old age, perhaps around reaching a hundred years of age. I don’t have much more to say about it.

But a problem with cherry-picking a statement from the Bible to use as a rule for leading life is that it can lead to any course of action. Murder, rape, genocide and so forth. So we are back to the fact that we have responsibility for all our actions. This also means taking responsibility of how we choose to select and shape our living and beliefs.

Reading between the lines – altering the point of view

Now, instead of just assuming a random sentence to be what to adhere to for the rest of a lifetime, I find it much more interesting to dive a bit deeper into other things Jesus and the Bible has to say.

Actually Jesus is involved a lots of talk about fish as well as fishing . This is not surprising considering the location and culture he was partake in. Jesus had to talk the same language and use the customs of the people around him to be understood. But he spoke a lot of the time in parables, what he wanted to convey was the way of thinking, speaking and acting leading to a person’s realization of being God just as he had. In the Bible this is what might be referred to as the “reaching the Kingdom of Heaven”.

Jesus also goes on for quite a bit in encouraging his listeners to remember the words of God that they supposedly should adhere to, but are not. There one may especially take note of the commandment of not killing.

If a person would be really interested in using the Bible as their guide, they should read and study it, with an open mind and also skeptically. And when doing so, try to ask themselves deep questions. For example: What does the Bible actually say? Does it relate to my life experiences somehow? What am I feeling while reading this? Where does those feelings come from? Why am actually reading this?

But let us for now continue with some more Bible references in regards to veganism.

A point of origin – a point to return to

In the book of genesis the first statement from God about food is

[1:29] God said. “See I have given you every plant yielding seed that is upon the face of all the earth, and every tree with seed in its fruit; you shall have them for food“.

Taken literally, it seems quite vegan. Note that only after the fall from grace with the murder of Abel by Cain and the following Flood comes the kind of dejected statement from God that all animals are up for the taking by humans:

[9:2] “The fear and dread of you shall rest on every animal of the earth, and on every bird of the air, on everything that creeps on the ground, and on all the fish of the sea; into your hand they are delivered.”

[9:3] “Every moving thing that lives shall be food for you; and just as I gave you the green plants, I give you everything.”

Now I don’t see the bible as much as a chronological history as it is an allegory to explain how a state of mind/consciousness relates to the experience of the world around. So take special note on the mention of fear and dread!

So, let us elaborate a bit on this allegory. When consciousness forgets its god-hood, it gets scared of its own manifestations, and that profound sense of separation is what the murder between brothers ultimately represents. The separate self thinks it can lack, that people, things and even ideas can be good or evil, and belong to it or not. All negative feelings, thoughts, actions and experiences stem from the lack of realization of the fact that there is no real separation, and that creator-ship comes from and even is consciousness itself. It encompasses all that exists and there is nothing else. Falling from grace or heaven is nothing else than succumbing to the belief of separation between self and other. In my eyes, God giving up on humans is equivalent to a person giving up on their own creative power to shape a more positive reality.

An end is a beginning. A beginning is an end

The goal at the end of the reversed separation process is what is called Illumination in Christianity, Tahwid in Islam, Rigpa in Dzogchen, Moksha in Hinduism, Nirvana in Buddhism, Ushta in Zoroastrianism, Da’at in Judaism. There are so many names for this experience to be found in different religions, and even inside the same religion.

The religions often starts with a being who after becoming enlightened seeks to give the same gift to all other life. Thus, a measure for if a religion has been properly practiced or not could be said to be that the practitioner receives the actual experience that the creator of the religion had. And a being thus enlightened, really does not need to eat fish anymore, because the fish IS not apart from the enlightened being. Both human and fish enlightened, just marvel at each others presence.


I will end this blog post here, but might come back to it later to expand on certain ideas. I welcome questions, criticism and any other feedback if you have read this far. I would very much like to hear from you!